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Faithfulness

Well I haven't wrote a blog in a LONG time! So I decided to write one with the extra time I have today. This is the fourth week of homeschooling the boys and its going GREAT! This year is the third year of homeschooling and its the BEST too. I'm am getting the hang of it and I think the kids are really enjoying it too. Its been such a great day and I am so full of the JOY of the Lord. Because of his Joy I have been giving strength to get thru this day.

In my quiet time this morning God was speaking to me about faithfulness. To be honest I'm not faithful but I do want to be. I want to be faithful with all aspects of my life. Whatever it be I want to be faithful but most of all I want to be faithful to him. Not just making sure I talk to him and worshiping him daily but mainly reading his word everyday. I know I cant do it without him and then I am encouraged I can do it. He is in me and thru him I can do all things. I don't know about you but that pretty awesome no matter how much I screw up our relationship he forgives, forgets and then continues to LOVE me! I know this is a simple revelation but when I get busy with life I have to be reminded of these things.

Well I wanted to share two songs that I have enjoyed GREATLY today!! I posted the lyrics and a video so ENJOY!!!

Hillsong United
You Deserve

What is this love given to us
That saved my life through selfless sacrifice
Although we fail the cross prevails
Forgiveness stands
You take me back again

You’ve shown me life
You’ve opened my eyes
So I give You my praise
Yeah I give You my all
You’ve shown me life
You’ve opened my eyes
To the truth that there’s no greater love

Now in the darkness God’s light shines
Christ forever glorified
So come on come on sing out to God
Now with all we’ve got
We live for You our God

Salvation’s strong in Christ alone
The Saviour King alone in victory
I step aside give You my life
For You to move do what You want to do

I can’t imagine a life without You without You
‘Cause it’s all for You
Yeah it’s all for You
God



Hillsong
You Hold Me Now

On that day when I see
All that You have for me
When I see You face to face
There surrounded by Your grace

All my fear is swept away
In the light of your embrace
When Your love is all I need
And forever I am free

Where the streets are made of gold
In Your presence healed and whole
Let the songs of heaven rise to you alone

No weeping, no hurt or pain
No suffering You hold me now
You hold me now
No darkness no sick or lame
No hiding You hold me now,
You hold me now

In this life I will stand
Through my joy and my pain
Knowing there's a greater day
There's a hope that never fails

When Your name is lifted high
And forever praises rise
For the glory of Your Name
I'm believing for the day

When the wars and violence cease
All creation lives in peace
Let the songs of heaven rise to you alone

No weeping, no hurt or pain
No suffering You hold me now
You hold me now
No darkness, no sick or lame
No hiding You hold me now,
You hold me now

For eternity
All my heart will give
All the glory to Your name x4

No weeping, no hurt or pain
No suffering You hold me now
You hold me now
No darkness no sick or lame
No hiding You hold me now,
You hold me now x3

Tear Down The Walls

Ok so I have to write about this song. I have been listening to this one song since last Thursday and its so powerful! I cant stop singing everywhere I go. So we sung it at 1829 last night and I was blown away even more when I read the words to one verse. Its like a reminder and a promise of what we are suppose to do and what can happen . It bring me to tears the love that I have for his people now. I love singing in the car and worshipping him where I go. But I am singing more out loud and not just at home or in the shower. hehe But while I am grocery shopping or when I am waiting in a check out line. I want God inhabit the praises of his people where ever I go. I want to be that light in the dark places. Seriously who else is going to do it I cant rely on someone else to do it. I just need to do it. My heart hurts but and the same time it has hope for his people! I want to make a difference in this city where ever I go! Well here are the lyrics to the song I have been listen to none stop. Its on the new Hillsong United CD called Tear Down The Walls

Tear down the walls see the world
Is there something we have missed
Turn from ourselves
Look beyond
There is so much more than this

PRE CHORUS:
And I don't need to see it to believe it
I don't need to see it to believe it
Cause I can't shake this
Fire deep inside my heart

VERSE 2:
Look to the skies hope arise
See His majesty revealed
More than this life there is love
There is hope and this is real

PRE CHORUS 2:
Cause I don't need to see it to believe it
I don't need to see it to believe it
Cause I can't shake this fire burning
Deep inside my heart

CHORUS:
This life is Yours and hope is rising
As Your glory floods our hearts
Let love tear down these walls
That all creation would
Come back to You
It's all for You

CHORUS 2:
Your Name is glorious
Glorious
Your love is changing us
Calling us
To worship in spirit and in truth
As all creation returns to You

BRIDGE:
Oh for all the sons and daughters
Who are walking in the darkness
You are calling us to lead them back to You
We will see Your spirit rising
As the lost come out of hiding
Every heart will see this hope we have in You

Your Love Never Fails

So I have been listening to Your Love never fails a LOT lately. I really listen to it over and over. So it made me think today why am I listening to it so much.Then I realized its the song that expresses what I feel at this time. I start to really listen to the words and then I realized that its my testimony. His redeeming love is what changed me. His love is what changed my life forever! It also continues to be his love that overwhelms me. Even now I am so overwhelmed by his love and this song expresses it. Its like I had a light turn on in my head. Every time I worship its to a song that express his love to me or my love for him. Thats the reason I can give him everything in my life is because of his love. This is also why my heart burns for the lost because I want them to experience the love that I have from my heavenly father. Even the healing from his love that I have also experienced. I want my family, my friends especially my children to experience the love from our heavenly father. Well I just wanted to express my heart and encourage you to just take time to experience his love for you today! Oh here are the words to Your Love Never Fails.

Nothing can separate
Even if I ran away
Your love never fails

I know I still make mistakes
But You have new mercies for me everyday
Your love never fails

Chorus:
You stay the same through the ages
Your love never changes
There maybe pain in the night but joy comes in the morning
And when the oceans rage
I don't have to be afraid
Because I know that You love me
Your love never fails

Verse 2:
The wind is strong and the water's deep
But I'm not alone in these open seas
Cause Your love never fails

The chasm is far too wide
I never thought I'd reach the other side
But Your love never fails

Bridge:
You make all things work together for my good

I Am Not The Same

Well I haven't written a blog in such a long time but I do think its time to tell everyone of what God has done in our lives the last year.

It started last year at youth camp God was just working in our hearts about things in our(James and me) life. Then we come back from camp and the prophetic conference starts the first nite James and I got a word. One thing James asked God was he wanted something specific and God gave him a specific time. Things were still being broken off us even 8 years later. We took it to heart and started praying it in. We asked God so many questions the next six months. As those six months went by God did something in us and we began to change and brake off of us. We had still dealt with shame and doubting ourselves. It was a good six months, things even changed in the way we saw God and his goodness. Around christmas things changed even more for us. We had to trust God even more for his provision and he did provide. Then God put certain people in our lives and that helped us even more with what we were going through. I began to evaluate myself and see who I was in God. As I did this for Dec, Jan and Feb I began to realize I can still achieve the desires of my heart. So I started to paint again I hadn't really done it since I was a kid but I was determined to set time a side for it. Well as I have searched to see who I am in him I have begun to have a confidence thru him too. But there were still things I needed to deal with.

So then March 23rd we were candidates in the Prophectic Conference. We were so excited! I didn't know what to expect but I wasn't nervous either. Let me tell you it was so amazing. We got some pretty amazing words then to top it off our church had an offering for us. In that moment I was so blown away by the Love from Shady Grove Church. I didn't know how to receive that. You see nothing against my parents but we were not a lovely dovey family we knew we loved each other but didn't show it too often. So God has dealt with me these last 8 1/2 with such a loving Husband and children. So there were so many words I cant even remember right now but it was the fuel we needed to continue to endure the race and to know if we had made the right decisions in out lives. One thing they said was that I absolutely loved was that I was meant to be with James. I will say that made me even more happy not that I have ever thought that we don't belong together but I know people have said that we weren't meant to be and that we just got married because of Gabriel. So when they spoke that we were meant be to together over us I know it broke off those lies from the enemy. They also spoke about my dreams that God was going to speak even more clearly through them. They also said that my tears would be healing tears for the girls that need the same healing. They said that James would raise up an army of young men. One thing I loved hearing was not to transition to another ministry but to stay with the one we are in. I love pouring into youth and young adults. So we left that day so full of encouragement and fuel to continue on with the race.

It doesn't stop there then we were blessed with tickets to go to Cyprus. I have been praying for God to make a way for us to go for about 2yrs now and here we were about to finally go. This was also our first trip overseas together. We were so excited! Our trip to Cyprus was life changing. That community is just so amazing. The school just blew me away. To see these young adults worshipping God and serving each other was just so wonderful to see. They are definitely doing something life changing at Gateways Beyond. They had worship from 8 to 1030 then teachings to 1030 to 1230. then there was lunch and back to teachings from 2 to 4 pm. Peter Prothero the speaker that week and we were told he was an amazing teacher. So we sat in all the teachings while he was there. All I can say is his teachings were so rich with the knowledge of God and his word. Well when we weren't in the teaching we got to hang out with the students and the our friends from texas. Everyone just impacted my life in some kind of way. Whether it was something I saw them do or heard them say. The people at that school were so serving, so loving and so encouraging. I will never be the same because of them. They prophsesied over us before we left and it was just so shocking to me. During that week we were there I had alot of conversations with God about concerns, questions and people I was worried about. God spoke to them and just reasurred me of things and encouraged me about EVERYTHING and I do mean EVERYTHING I had talked to him about that week. Even now as I write this I am so overwelemed by his love and goodness. Well the secenry was breathe taking we got to drive around a little and see some villages. I have never been to a place where it hurt to leave. I know I will be back someday!

Well the last tihing I want to say today was as these days go on I see how God has changed me so much. I just feel this constant Joy of the Lord. Just when I thought he was done with me last night happens. We had a special speaker from Ethiopia named Mezmur Zemicheal. Listening to him preach was just eye opening then he gave an altar call if you had bondage in your life that was holdin you back to come up and recieve the fire. The Holy Spirit reveled something in my life that was hindering me so I went up. I am being very very vunerble when i say this out loud to you but I had a serious fear of man. More in the area of getting up in front of people and teaching, preaching or even giving a word. I have always known about this fear but for some odd reason would never get rid of it. I guess in so many ways I was also afraid to tell others about it because then I knew people would challenge me to do those things I was afraid to do. So I cried out to him and asked him to remove that bondage so that I may be used by him. WOW when Mezmur prayed over me the first time he continue to shout over me " You will NEVER be the same!" When he said that I just began to baul my eyes out. That was God promise to me and I just began to weep more. Once again I thought God was done with me and then Mezmur prayed over me again. God BLASTED me again! He said some other stuff but cant remember them right now. All I can say is God knows what his people need and if we are willing to be free from the junk in our lives he will FREE us from it! I woke up this morning and I knew I needed to profess what God has done in my life this past year. I am so excited to see what God has for us these next coming years. Thank you for reading this and I pray God Blesses you. I also pray that God will pour into you and that you will be ruined by God like I have been.

Love ya and God Bless!!!